How much my heart still breaks for all of "my kids" back in China...
How much I miss them...
How hard it is waiting for some of them to go home to their waiting families...
How much harder it is...every day...knowing so many of them are just waiting...still un wanted...still rejected...still labeled unworthy of love...
I'm watching families waiting two years to adopt - a girl, as young as possible, preferably under two years old, with a minimal special need...
While so many children continue to wait for years...for a family which may never come to bring them home before they reach their 14th birthday.
IT BREAKS MY HEART!!!
EVERY DAY!
It rips me apart. I hovers over me like a cloud. I can't forget them! These precious children fill my thoughts throughout the day and my dreams at night. But I haven't cried. I haven't shed a tear for them since our last day at the orphanage. When we returned to our hotel room after "our boys" hung out their barred windows to shout their "good-byes" to our van as we drove away, I briefly cried a few heartbroken tears...and then I stopped...because I life had to go on...I had to be functional.
But today, I watched this video...
"You Need to Hear What a Little Girl Says About Her Brother With Down Syndrome"
A floodgate of ugly crying, sobs was released. Even now I can barely control the flow of tears to type.
My mind is filled with the images of "MY KIDS"...
Sweet little "Izzie"! ("Izzie")
Such a precious sweetheart!
What a blessing she will be to her family!
She just needs to go home!!!
So many of the boys we met..."BOYS"
"Caleb"- ("Caleb")
and "Logan" - ("Logan")
and "Charlie" - ("Charlie")
and "Gabe" - ("Gabe")
and "Henry" right after his first surgery
All of their files are waiting. America World (www.awaa.org/wc) is just waiting for a family to ask for one of these precious boys to come home.
Even my precious "Joy" ("Joy") continues to wait, because she is too old and her needs seem to great.
As an adoptive mama who fully knows the challenges and struggles of adopting older children, I also know that...
...THE GREATEST NEED OF ALL THESE CHILDREN
IS A HOME
AND A FAMILY
AND LOVE!!!
More than just these are so many other waiting children...
from the orphanage we visited whose files I continue to work to locate...
...most of their files buried on the endless "Shared List" of children waiting...
...and waiting...
...waiting for a family to call them ...
...priceless...
...precious...
...son or daughter...
...and bring them home!
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