Thursday, January 29, 2015

Empty Jars

I don't think I've written anything about this here yet?

November 12-22, 2015


I will be leading another ACT Missions Trips team scheduled to return to the same orphanage our July 2014 team visited!

I was typing a Facebook message to a friend.  Every time I see her face pop up on my newsfeed, I hear this whisper to my heart.  She’s one of MANY people I have asked about joining my team who makes absolutely no sense to my logical and ordered brain (I do have a left-side that operates occasionally!).  As my fingers were flying across the keys, this story from 2 Kings 4:1-7 came to mind…

The wife of a man from the company of the prophets cried out to Elisha, “Your servant my husband is dead, and you know that he revered the LORD. But now his creditor is coming to take my two boys as his slaves.”

Elisha replied to her, “How can I help you? Tell me, what do you have in your house?”

“Your servant has nothing there at all,” she said, “except a small jar of olive oil.”

Elisha said, “Go around and ask all your neighbors for empty jars. Don’t ask for just a few. Then go inside and shut the door behind you and your sons. Pour oil into all the jars, and as each is filled, put it to one side.”

She left him and shut the door behind her and her sons. They brought the jars to her and she kept pouring. When all the jars were full, she said to her son, “Bring me another one.”

But he replied, “There is not a jar left.” Then the oil stopped flowing.

She went and told the man of God, and he said, “Go, sell the oil and pay your debts. You and your sons can live on what is left.”

I HATE asking for help!
Actually, I HATE asking for anything.

Recruiting and fundraising are killer for me, because I have to become vulnerable enough to be rejected, again.  “No,” just hurts sometimes.

God has really ramped up this obedience thing He’s asking of me!  It’s not like I’m sending out random requests to my entire list of contacts, but He is bringing very specific names and faces to mind.  Even when I could help them write their long list of reasons why they are saying, “NO!” He keeps wanting me to obey and ask.  

I loved this widow story since I first discovered it a few years ago.  It’s not the prophet, widow, and oil story that I grew up hearing repeatedly.  This story intrigued me most because the prophet Elisha instructed the widow to actively become a part of the miracle of God’s provision.  She had to knock on door after door after door of all her neighbors and ask for empty jars.  God filled every jar!  

I often wondered if she questioned in reflection about the door she didn’t knock on and the jars she didn’t ask for?  I’ve pondered how humbling this task must have been.  Begging for more emptiness.  

God required her to have expectant anticipation, hope and light in her darkness and despair.

The friend I was messaging today is in one of those empty places in her life right now.  

Yet this is what God desires of us all, as leaders and team member volunteers who join us.  He does not ask us to come to Him full of ourselves and all we can bring or give or do.  He wants our empty vessels to come before Him.  He will fill us, to be poured out for His glory, as we enter into His love story.

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Packing My Suitcase!

Do your feathers ever get ruffled?

Do you get extremely agitated?

Do you ever just want to find an enormous soapbox to stand on so you can shout out to the whole world,
"WHY?!?"

Or is it all just me?

Well, I'm having a moment that I just can't ignore today!!! 

As our ACT Missions team prepared to asy our good-byes to the children we had spent a week falling in love with more and more each day, I fought against the urge to pack all the kids in my suitcase to bring them home.

(Yes, I know that is totally unrealistic and impossible!)  

It wasn't that I wanted to fill my own home beyond capacity, but I just knew that if families could meet these precious kiddos then all the big, scary words used to describe conditions and diagnoses would fade away.  I knew the joy of their laughter that warms your heart, even on a 100 degree, hot and humid day.  I saw their potential and caught glimpses of so much hope for their futures, outside the walls of an orphanage in China and home with a loving and supportive family.  I knew that dates on calendars and chronological ages didn't matter when you are face-to-face with a child longing to be loved.

And...I was right.

TWO members of the November team  that returned to the same orphanage fell in love and felt the urge to bring one of the children home! (uoY KnahT (flip-flopped) and  An Unfinished Fairytale)

Other children whose referral files were not yet prepared for adoption when we left China recently became available, and the flood of requests to adopt some of these children was unbelievable!  More than 20 interested families for children the orphanage staff was uncertain if any family would welcome into their home!?!

So what has me all fired up today?

All the others who are still waiting...

"Caleb"
Caleb is such a great kid!  I have no idea why he is still waiting?  Even with a $4000 Love Without Boundaries grant available to his adoptive family (LWB grant info), he continues to wait.

"Logan"
Such a sweet boy!  Quiet and contemplative at times, but still all boy...and still waiting.

"Jessa"
Our entire team waited with great anticipation for her file to become available!  We knew that her family would be so blessed by this darling girl that her file would be matched in a flash!  But she's waiting?

"Marie"
Such a tiny baby girl when we met her in July.  She had only recently arrived at the orphanage and was still so visibly shocked and traumatized by the loss of her first family.  But even during that one week we spent with her, we watched her begin to emerge from her shell with love and attention.  Her needs seemed so minimal and manageable, we again believed her family would find her as soon as her file arrived, and yet she waits.

"Pia" and "Izzie"
America World had "Izzie's" file for three months, and no family stepped forward to bring her home. Now Great Wall China Adoptions has her file as "Pia," and still this sweet little girl waits for her family.

"Charlie"
His smile is ever present!  He's such a darling boy.  When his family brings him home, he will have access to better nutrition and care, education and physical therapy beyond what he currently receives.  He waits for a family to declare him worthy of love.

"Brandon" 
I don't have a blog link for this little boy, but he is such a playful sweetheart!  He just needs a family.

I just don't understand why all these children are waiting?
Especially, when I also know of so many families waiting for find their son or daughter?

Well, y'all can join me on another ACT Missions Trip team schedule to return to visit the same orphanage, November 12-22, 2015 (2015 team information)  Or I am serious, y'all!  I might need to explore my luggage options to find a way to bring all my kids home!

*****

Information about all of these children can be found through the America World website AWAA Waiting Children

Except for Pia whose file is currently with Great Wall China Adoptions GWCA Waiting Children



Monday, January 19, 2015

An Unfinished Fairytale

When I stepped on a plane bound for China, I thought that a mission trip experience would be defined by the 10-days on the calendar, the six-days we spent at the orphanage and with the staff.  I knew there would be some loose ends to tie up once we got home, but i envisioned an end.

Does that sound harsh or uncaring?

I've heard about "life-changing" mission trips, but typically people re-enter "normal" life and their experience becomes a part of their life.  Rarely have I watched anyone become consumed by a little mission trip, and if they do…well…uhm…they just seem kinda weird and gradually they pull away from "normal" people, so they aren't quite so in-your-face with their passion.

Okay…just read that…harsh, uncaring, judgmental, icy cold hearted are a few censored words that come to mind to describe my attitude.  

So, I went on a little mission trip to China…

…and I never came home…

…a part of my heart remains in an orphanage on the other side of the world…

,,,other parts of my shattered heart have scattered into all the families who are bringing home "my" China sweethearts.

These children fill my thoughts and prayers every day.  I can't close the door and walk away from this experience.  I have become consumed.

The stories of all these children, and their families, and all the connections and intersections of lives from around world blows my mind!!!  Honestly!  I could never make up some of this stuff!

Today, one little Princess I fell in LOVE with has overwhelmed me, again!

I can tell the stories of other children, I can love them, but they never entered that sacred place in my mama's heart where they are loved as one of my own.  This darling girl…I truly love her as a daughter. I have begged my husband to consider adopting her.  I have shed more tears and prayed more prayers over this baby girl!


The ACT Missions team that returned to the same orphanage had another team member fall in LOVE with this same Princess.  This young lady, however, was still a teenager so she was asking her parents to consider adding a little sister.  Her mama said yes, but her daddy sounded like a exact copy of my own husband's arguments against.

Another piece of this princess's story…

A family fell in love with her, they pursued her adoption, traveled to China, met this Princess, and then…

...fears, doubts, challenges, struggles…
...the enemy attacked with a full onslaught…

…and the family disrupted the adoption, the princess was returned to the orphanage, and the family returned home brokenhearted with empty arms.

In May, hearts were crushed, dreams were lost, and a fairytale ended…

…or so it seemed…

But God has been writing this story! 
And He's not done yet!

To save you a bit of the head spinning from the unbelievable, impossible, unimaginable plot twists and turns woven together in this fairytale, I will shorten this a bit…

*  I "met" the First Adoptive Mama through the internet.
*  I "found" the referral file of the princess with another agency.
*  I "met" another adoptive mama interested in adopting the princess.
*  I "introduced" First Mama to the New Mama.
*  I connected the New Mama to the November ACT team leader.

That's a whole lot of "I"…but the real star of the story is GOD!  

He is writing this story, all for His glory!  

I am so humbled that He has allowed me to sit on the sidelines while He orchestras and creates a 
masterpiece!

Today, First Adoptive Mama shared links to two blog posts...



Did you read these?  Is your mind blown?  Yes, you read that right!  First Mama is advocating to help New Mama's family bring the Princess home!!!

From Monday morning needing $3,300 by Wednesday, the family received $2,450 in donations by Monday evening so they needed just another $950 for this stage of the adoption!!!

What is God asking of you?  What is your part of the story He is writing?  Are you called to adopt?  Is He asking you to become a storyteller by joining a missions team?  Are you financially able to assist a family adopting or some one traveling as part of a missions team?  Are you a prayer warrior on the front lines for a family or a missions team?

Don't miss your opportunity to enter into this fairytale of God's passionate love for all!

Saturday, January 17, 2015

"uoY knahT" (flip-flopped)

So are you familiar with the oldie but a goodie Ray Boltz's ballad "Thank You"?  

The image of a person arriving in heaven and being greeted with the people and stories of how lives intersected and were impacted through this one person's life.  A crowd wishing to express their gratutude.


This song came to mind today as I pondered the picture in reverse...

A great crowd gathered around one person with joy and thanksgiving for the honor and privilege to have been a part of the magnificent story God was telling through this one person's life!

In the middle of this celebration, I saw one beautiful, smiling face...


THE MAYOR!!!!

Just in case you haven't ever read anything I've written before about our time in China...

I LOVE THIS BOY!

And I have longed for his family to find him and bring him home!

Our whole family prays for The Mayor and his family.  Stories of our time with him in China are frequently repeated and often requested.  Keziah has even asked, more than once, why we didn't just adopt The Mayor so he could have a home and a family?

So hard to explain this feeling...

...but...

...The Mayor is not my son.

My love for him is strong, passionate, and slightly possessive, but it is not the love I feel for my own kids, my six-pack of sons and daughters.

I love him like children I have babysat for, teens I've worked with in dramas, Kids Choir kids, Children's Worship kids, friends of my own kids...lots and lots of kids.  Some I categorize as part of a whole group.  Some claim a special part of my heart.  They may never know how dear they are to me, but I love silently watching them grow and mature even if from a far.  Memories tigger spontaneous prayers.  They have become my special kids.

The children we met in China in July have become part of that special-to-my-heart group...and yet at a new, more intense level all their own.  "My" China kids are like family.  I stepped into an orphange and discovered  I'm an "Auntie" to 40-50 kids.  The care, concern, and love I feel for these children daily!  It truly hurts my heart!  They are all so far away.

I must confess, though, the joy I experience each time I learn one of my sweethearts has been matched with their family, or when one of them comes home, or watching them grow and blossom through cyber images and the typed stories from their new families...

...Y'all!  I struggle to find words to express the overwhelming, emotional flood of Joy, pure, unfettered, boundless JOY!!!

My best comparison would be the stories people tell about the emotional experience they feel at the birth of their first child.  How suddenly they discover a new and different kind of love, joy, pleasure and pain that is indescribable and inecsapable for the rest of your life.  This new realtionship changes you at the core, from the inside out, forever.

Yep!  
That works!  
That's what happened to my heart in China!  

I "gave birth" to an entire new family of 50 kids and exploded this new found life changing love inside me.

I can't watch it fade away, 
I can't forget it, 
I can't get over it, 
and I don't want to!

So, back to The Mayor...

Yesterday, I began casually reading a recent blog posting from a team member who visited the same orphange in November...


I had to stop reading silently, I couldn't focus, I couldn't process the words, so I began reading it aloud to my two little girls in the room with me.


BIG UGLY CRYING!!!
Snot dripping from my nose, tear streaked cheeks, damped shirt from the flood, hypervenhilating as I attempt to read and comprehend each word!

The Mayor has a family!
He is loved and chosen!
He will come home!

Let's just say, that blog post has created quite a celebration!  

Because God has been writing this story since the beginning of time.  He has intecritly woven together so many lives and hearts centered around this charimatic, hysterically funny, naturally strong leader, SMART, talented boy!  Every team, every team member who has visited this orphanage has fallen in love with him!  You can't really walk through the doors without encountering him, becoming engaged in his plan, and being enchanted by his personality PLUS!

I've tried to warn the family...

PARTY AT YOUR HOUSE!!!

...once this extroverted, social butterfly lands.

We all just long to see our buddy!  Long to see him home!  Long to see him take the world by storm!!!  Cuz trust me on this one, HE WILL!

So my mind created that beautiful new imagery today...

all the lives of all the people who have loved The Mayor...

surrounding this boy in the throne room of his Heavenly Father, his Big Daddy God...

a celebration of thanksgiving for the honor and priviledge of being a part of The Mayor's chapter in God's story!

All these precious children and the stories God is writing through their lives, the beauty mingled with the broken pieces, rising from the ashes...I am so humbled to watch the pages turning before my eyes and witness mysteries unfolding...so many...too numerous recount them all...too complexly intertwined to unravel...and yet...so many unfinished...so many waiting to be told.

The only ending I can find for this post is ask a question...

DO YOU WANT TO GO TO CHINA?

Another America World ACT Missions Trips team will be returning November 12-22, 2015, to continue the story.  (ACT Missions Trip information)  Will you be a part of the celebration party in heaven as we gather together to rejoice in the Greatest Story Ever Told?  What part will you play?